My heart and my soul....

" one cannot find any rule of conduct to excel"simplicity" and "sincerity".....

This morning when the Lord opened a window to Heaven,He saw me,
and He asked:"My child,what is your greatest wish for today?"
I respended:"Lord please take care of my family ,relatives and special friends.They deserved it
and I love them very much.
The love of God is like the ocean,you can see its beginning,but not its end.

To a dear kuya Jun...Happy Birthday

Focus Now
Right now you have available to you everything you need to one step forward.
Once you take that step,you will have even more available to you to keep on going.
The more persistently you move forward,step by step the more momentum you build.
And it is a process that you can begin at anytime.
Focus on the one step that you can take right now.
Let go of all regrets and resentment about what has happened already.
Let go of all fears and anxities about what may be yet to come.
Put your energy into where you are,and use that energy to do what you can to this moment.
Though there maybe noise and confusion all around,you can transcend all those directions.
Decide to focus on the task at hand,for that is what will move you forward.
Think of how great it feels to be moving in a positive,productive directions.
Focus your energy right now and make it happen.

Habibi..

Sometimes the heart sees what the eye cannot"

God said,No

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said,No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said,No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
it isn't granted,it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings,Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Sufferings draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said,No.
You must grow on your own!
But I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life,so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me,Love others,as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh..finally you have the idea.
If you love..

It's all in the mind

The mind is the singular most important agent for change...with the revival of ancient techniques and the invention of new forms everyday,it is difficult enough keeping absent of everything,not to mention becoming a master of them all.

"Dankbar für jeden Tag"

Eine Ehefrau,die ihren Mann vier Wochen lang während seines Sterbens begleitet hat,beschreibt ihre erfahrungen:
"Wenn ich es mir wählen dürfte,möchte ich einmal ganz schnell in den Tod gehen; aber ich bin dankbar,dass X's Sterben vier Wochen gedauert hat. Ich bin um jeden Tag dankbar den ich für ihn noch sorgen konnte,für jede Begegnung,da er sich auf mich verließ, meiner Kraft vertraute,auflebte,wenn ich sein Zimmer betrat,wenn ich an sein Bett kam,wennn ich ihm zu trinken brachte,wenn es aus meiner Hand etwas zu sich erlebt hätte,wenn er in jener ersten Nacht erstickt wäre.Ich hätte diesen Tod unsagbar grausam und sinnlos empfunden,ohne die Möglichkeit Abschied zu nehmen,ohne die Möglichkeit,noch einmal gut zueinander gewesen zu sein.nie habe ich intensiver gespürt,was er mir bedeutet hat,als in diesen vier Wochen seines Sterbens.Ich bin dankbar dafür,dass er sich s
tapfer gegen Tod gewehrt hat.Das Herausgerissenwerden aus dem täglichen Nebeneinanderherleben hätte unendlich viel Schuldgefühle geweckt.So war noch einmal ein intensives Miteinander möglich,ganz hingeordnet auf den Sterbenden,nicht mehr in den Ansprüchigkeit,dass auc ich Beachtung finde,dass auch mein Rat gelten möchte.
Es kommt mir vor,als ob es das Letze gewesen sei,was er geleistet hat,sich gegen den Tod zur Wehr zu setzen,noch eine Weile für uns dazusein.Gewiss war ich fro für ihn, als er den letzen Schritt in den Tod hinter sich gebracht hatte.Dass sein Leiden ein Ende hatte.Wohl war ich glücklich,und zugleich bin ich dankbar für jeden Tag seines Sterbens ohne klage,in Tapferkeit,für jeden Tag,da er noch in der Lage war,meine Liebe entgegenzunehmen.Die Erfahrungen des Sterbens war die größte Gemeinsamkeit,die uns beiden zuteil geworden ist,größer als alle Erfahrungen der Ehe,als die Umarmung,als die Zeugung,als die Geburt und das Glück und die Sorge mit den kindern.Es war das absolute Wichtigste,das ich in meinem Leben erlebt habe."

Prayer of a parent

When my patience seems too short,help me stretch it,teach me how to meet each crisis with a smile..when I'm running out of quick and clever answers,let the questions stop for just a little while..When it seems as though the day has too few hours,in which to do the things I have to do...May I always find the time for what's important..time for listening,time for love and laughter too...

....Caritas 3 angels

"Though another may have more money,beauty,brains than you;yet when it comes to the rarer spiritual values such as charity,self-sacrifice,honor,nobility of heart,you have an equal chance with everyone to be the most beloved and honored of all people."

Do You Ever Wonder?..........

Do you ever wonder at the wonder of it all? Do you ever stand in awe of the tiniest things and how perfectly,they work together? Do you ever stop to think about all the possibilities and how even though,they have no limit they grow in number with every minute?
Do you ever wonder when the leaves,flutter down in autumn
at the encomprehensible power of life that brings them back in springs?
Do you watch the waves roll in and then look out far beyond them
Where the water seems to touch the sky and realize that the vast expanse before your eyes?
Is only a small little corner?
And Do you comprehend that all there really is.. as unimaginably grand as it may seem,is only a smaller corner still, of all that there can be?
Do you ever wonder how love can stay alive..past every pleasure and every pain
And even where there can be no hope.....there is more than ever?
Do you ever struggle to lift a heavy rock and wonder how a massive mountain can rise thousands of feet above the plain, without even trying?
Do you realize that, no matter how much you may know,it may know no matter how may wonders you may experienced, there will always be more?
Do you ever wonder why it is you wonder...and why you know..what beauty is...........
even though you can't define it?
Do you ever wonder who is looking out,through your eyes,
and feeling completely at home,with the wonders of it all?
Whatever you believe,
whatever you profess,
Whatever you doubt or fear or hope for,
there are some things your heart cannot deny.........
When you let go and let yourself know
the wonder of i t all.

........minerva

A woman of real beauty smiles in trouble,
gathers strength from distress,
and grows brave by reflection and prayers.

Kuya Jun and his son Kokoy,mama and me....."True happiness depends upon close alliance with God" 

"Real friends are those who,when you've made a fool of yourself,don't feel that you've done a permanent job" 

Singkil...a moslem dance 

Mothers Day....

Happy
Mothers Day........
M.....is for the million things she gave me.
O......means only that she's growing old,
T.......is for the tears she shed to save me,
H.......is for her heart of purest gold;
E........is for her eyes,with love-light shining,
R.........means right,and right she'll always be.
Put them all together,they spell
"Mother"....A word that means the world to me.
I love you ma..from your daughter ,girlie

My sister and my blogger.....

16:00 Uhr...I was in the kitchen preparing for our late lunch.I have heard a loud voice,almost screaming"Shit..shit...shiiiiiiiiiit"..it vanish..its gone..mein Gott äh.
.......hmm..I rushly went to see if there is something serious happen.,
Oh I see,a ja!she is doing a computer work..
Sonia arrived for few hours ago from Stuttgart.And there you are ,sitting with my laptop...
I told her ..hold your breath ,lets have a lunch first...tsk..tsk..tsk...
"she nod ..OKE,,again,sisterlein dali Naaaaaaaaaa essen..calling her almost with melodies..
she nod again "K"....
I observed her so focused and very concentrated..her hands,fingers glides, like a bird,so smooth,moving with her body and head fast like a grasshopper...
Her "ha ha ha" happiness to see the outcome..really a worth holding her up here with me in NRW(Nordrheinwestfallen.. ) .of course she promised me that..beautiful blogger..I admit iam not a literate computer,just trying hard.... The kids were a great help to this project.That time mike was around had contributed a technique that made sister copy and paste much easy as before..ehehehe;-)
And sister made again my life much more Colorful..bloggerly thanks,muaahh...
p.s
my blogger is mostly visited now..Thank you for dropping by...
bloggerly yours,
Princess

..time ran fast

My children are all grown-ups now. How the time ran fast. I could still see those innocent smiles during their childhood- school days. I thought as a mother, i have done my obligations- giving them my love, care, advices and assistance to hold them straight, which mother can offer to their children. To give them a good and strong foundation to build their own family too. There are times, i could feel their broken hearts, their loud cry being helpless but i cannot just be there to give them a hand and it hurts me so.

Man is lonely by birth. I believe, this is one thing in our life that we have to consider. I am sure, i am not alone in this World confronted with such feelings.

Grundschule of Mackie

The German Patients....

I work here in Germany,in one of the biggest Organization in the whole world for nearly 10 years now.My task is to take care of old people.I find my work so difficult but interesting.I love to work under old people.You see,,my patients mostly are intelligent,correct,one could imagine like a "President" or a "Queen".Almost all of them are lonely people.I guess,because of their experiences in former times..regardless of war or any reason.
I know that to be "old" isn't a favorite theme .Being old is relative.It is really hard to accept being old:That problem ..to be old isn't a problem but instead,that; how can we stay young.
In my area lives 3 pinays.I able to start the first step to work as an Altenpflegerin follows Clarita and Norma.
The 3 Angels........
For the German patients having us as Schwestern..they find it "lucky"
They know we do our job"pflege mit Herz und Seele"(we work with heart and soul) properly.And mostly, with gusto.
Of course,our duty has a time table..very limited for every patient..with different approach.
Clarita is my wechsel dienst.She work 5 days and free and I work week-ends and 5 days and then free.
We have a first patient we call her madame.Parkinson and diabetic ,highblood..Mwf is a big programe.M19..meaning a 1 hr service."P"
paligo,pahairdo,pakainin,pabihisan ,pablutdruck messen,pabigay medis at pa fix sa beddings.(anova yan) oi..don't forget to empty pa the toilletenstuhl.
at mag doku...hehehehe wa akong deutsch sister net.
Of course,in order that we know what is going on with her..we need to converse while doing our job.
Heto na...we have our own key to get inside..knock2x...guten morgen..Frau...
dann automatisch druck man die malteser notruf(hmm..)NAAAAAAAAA wie geht es Ihnen?..sabay pasok at nag tiklup na ng gamit nya..Sie antwortet..äh.. gut...sabay ..kuha sa mappe..at nag basa..sabi ko naman..klingt nicht zu überzeugen Frau...dann fängt Sie an zu erzählen..wissen Sie was Schwester..gestern war ich doch ins tagespflege...blabla..Öje...
After an hour pawis na ako..oke Frau ..dann bis morgen..Sie warten bis die civis Sie abholt okeeeeeeeee...?! mit kliene stimme..oke danke schön und bis morgen..(häää) makilala pakaya niya ako bukas kung hindi umandar ang demenz nya.Dann tschüß....sabay takbo to the next patient.My very first patient was a blind lady,parkison and overweight..I thought to myself I will try to look for a job if by a chance I could find one.Since Iam not pschologically strong to handle such cases.I always think of my mama.I pity them..I cried so hard ,at my first duty..but now ,Iam already used to it.I could even tackle the smell of the urine or stuhlgang.Whatelse could I do I choose that missionary work.And Iam glad I did.My father would be proud of me ,for I know he wished me to be so.
Angel....

Der Weg Zum Glück

Halte Hass fern von deinem Herzen,
belaste deine Gedanken nicht mit Sorgen.
Lebe einfach,erwarte wenig.
Sei freigiebig,singe oft,
bete ohne Unterlass.
Erfülle dein Leben mit Liebe.
Sende Sonnenstrahlen aus.
Denke nicht an dich,
sondern an andere.
Behandle andere Menchen so,
wie Du willst,dass sie dich behandeln.
Das sind die bewährten Glieder
in der goldenen Kette der Zufriedenheit.

Text:gefunden im Fernster eines Friseurs in Ägypten

Requeme.....

Efren used to read this poem he really likes it so much.Realizing that my father used to read and re-read it all over again according to my sister.
I missed them so much, not because I have this feeling ..being left alone.
Iam fighting with Gog..such a powerful,very influential..very trickery..man.
Iam so exhausted with an overwhelming problems.Sometimes,I could not help but cry.A loud cry but nobody could hear me.And sometimes, I was talking with my late husband and father..who left me for 30 years ago.
When Iam dead my dearest
Sing no sad song for me

Plant thou no Roses at my head

Nor a shadey cypress tree

Be the green grass above me

With showers and dew drops wet

And if thou wilt remember

And if thou wilt forget

I shall not see the shadow

I shall not feel the rain

I shall not hear the nigthtingale sing as if in pain

And dreaming through the twilight

That doth not rise nor set

Happly I may remember

Happly I may forget...