..time ran fast

My children are all grown-ups now. How the time ran fast. I could still see those innocent smiles during their childhood- school days. I thought as a mother, i have done my obligations- giving them my love, care, advices and assistance to hold them straight, which mother can offer to their children. To give them a good and strong foundation to build their own family too. There are times, i could feel their broken hearts, their loud cry being helpless but i cannot just be there to give them a hand and it hurts me so.

Man is lonely by birth. I believe, this is one thing in our life that we have to consider. I am sure, i am not alone in this World confronted with such feelings.

Grundschule of Mackie

The German Patients....

I work here in Germany,in one of the biggest Organization in the whole world for nearly 10 years now.My task is to take care of old people.I find my work so difficult but interesting.I love to work under old people.You see,,my patients mostly are intelligent,correct,one could imagine like a "President" or a "Queen".Almost all of them are lonely people.I guess,because of their experiences in former times..regardless of war or any reason.
I know that to be "old" isn't a favorite theme .Being old is relative.It is really hard to accept being old:That problem ..to be old isn't a problem but instead,that; how can we stay young.
In my area lives 3 pinays.I able to start the first step to work as an Altenpflegerin follows Clarita and Norma.
The 3 Angels........
For the German patients having us as Schwestern..they find it "lucky"
They know we do our job"pflege mit Herz und Seele"(we work with heart and soul) properly.And mostly, with gusto.
Of course,our duty has a time table..very limited for every patient..with different approach.
Clarita is my wechsel dienst.She work 5 days and free and I work week-ends and 5 days and then free.
We have a first patient we call her madame.Parkinson and diabetic ,highblood..Mwf is a big programe.M19..meaning a 1 hr service."P"
paligo,pahairdo,pakainin,pabihisan ,pablutdruck messen,pabigay medis at pa fix sa beddings.(anova yan) oi..don't forget to empty pa the toilletenstuhl.
at mag doku...hehehehe wa akong deutsch sister net.
Of course,in order that we know what is going on with her..we need to converse while doing our job.
Heto na...we have our own key to get inside..knock2x...guten morgen..Frau...
dann automatisch druck man die malteser notruf(hmm..)NAAAAAAAAA wie geht es Ihnen?..sabay pasok at nag tiklup na ng gamit nya..Sie antwortet..äh.. gut...sabay ..kuha sa mappe..at nag basa..sabi ko naman..klingt nicht zu überzeugen Frau...dann fängt Sie an zu erzählen..wissen Sie was Schwester..gestern war ich doch ins tagespflege...blabla..Öje...
After an hour pawis na ako..oke Frau ..dann bis morgen..Sie warten bis die civis Sie abholt okeeeeeeeee...?! mit kliene stimme..oke danke schön und bis morgen..(häää) makilala pakaya niya ako bukas kung hindi umandar ang demenz nya.Dann tschüß....sabay takbo to the next patient.My very first patient was a blind lady,parkison and overweight..I thought to myself I will try to look for a job if by a chance I could find one.Since Iam not pschologically strong to handle such cases.I always think of my mama.I pity them..I cried so hard ,at my first duty..but now ,Iam already used to it.I could even tackle the smell of the urine or stuhlgang.Whatelse could I do I choose that missionary work.And Iam glad I did.My father would be proud of me ,for I know he wished me to be so.
Angel....

Der Weg Zum Glück

Halte Hass fern von deinem Herzen,
belaste deine Gedanken nicht mit Sorgen.
Lebe einfach,erwarte wenig.
Sei freigiebig,singe oft,
bete ohne Unterlass.
Erfülle dein Leben mit Liebe.
Sende Sonnenstrahlen aus.
Denke nicht an dich,
sondern an andere.
Behandle andere Menchen so,
wie Du willst,dass sie dich behandeln.
Das sind die bewährten Glieder
in der goldenen Kette der Zufriedenheit.

Text:gefunden im Fernster eines Friseurs in Ägypten

Requeme.....

Efren used to read this poem he really likes it so much.Realizing that my father used to read and re-read it all over again according to my sister.
I missed them so much, not because I have this feeling ..being left alone.
Iam fighting with Gog..such a powerful,very influential..very trickery..man.
Iam so exhausted with an overwhelming problems.Sometimes,I could not help but cry.A loud cry but nobody could hear me.And sometimes, I was talking with my late husband and father..who left me for 30 years ago.
When Iam dead my dearest
Sing no sad song for me

Plant thou no Roses at my head

Nor a shadey cypress tree

Be the green grass above me

With showers and dew drops wet

And if thou wilt remember

And if thou wilt forget

I shall not see the shadow

I shall not feel the rain

I shall not hear the nigthtingale sing as if in pain

And dreaming through the twilight

That doth not rise nor set

Happly I may remember

Happly I may forget...

My Neighbor....

For 8 years ago,Lita began her life without a stronghold,her husband died.Now,her daughter is 14 years old.Lita is my neighbor.We have set a date for a lunch at her place.So, we went groceries and she cooked best Ilocos food.While standing,at her side..I noticed in her Ref.,a 2xDinA paper with a memo.for the both of them....Sehr interessant!

°Cherryl ;-) MamaÖ
°Cherryl Darf bis 19Uhr Draussen bleiben
Sollte es Später werden muss Angerufen werden!! ÖJeden Donnerstag soll Cherryl mind.1std. in ihre Bücher Gucken! °Ab 21h Herrscht"Telefon

recht verbot! ö Telefonieren:Mama Darf
nach 15min. um Eine En-
de beim Telefonieren.
Bitten o. um Rückruf!!
°Nicht frech sein!!Respekt!! öNicht Hauen!!
°Cherryl sagt Mama Bescheid mit wem Sie

sich tr ifft(Name u. Wohin ihr Geht)! egal mit wem!ÖCherry

+Mama Gehen auch mal ein-

kaufen Ohne sich zu streiten!°Cherryl Darf mit ihren

freudinnen Einkaufen u. entscheidet auch selbst

was ihr Gefällt! ÖMama Lässt cherryl ,Den film abend zu ende Gucken!

°Handy bleibt an!ÖMama Liest Die Briefchen nicht,Die in Cherryls

schultasche liegen!!°TV Bleibt morgens aus...Radio an!!

ÖMama vertraut Cherryl!!

°Schultashe wird Abends gepacktÖCherryl soll sich auch

mal Entschuldigen,wenn was falsch gelaufen ist!!!

Ein tag in der woche gehort euch Beiden^°Q°8-)

gez.Sabine cousine..

To a dear sister..Sonia,weil du einmalig bist

Niemand hat deine Fingerabdrücke.
Niemand hat deine Stimme.
Niemand sagt so"ich liebe dich" wie du.
Niemand glaubt wie du.
Niemand hat deine Geschichte.
Niemand spürt die gleiche Trauer,das gleiche Glück wie du.
Niemand ist wie du.
Niemand in deinem Land,auf deinem kontinent,auf dem dritten Planeten dieses Sonnensystems,in der Galaxie, die wir die Milchstraße nennen.
Niemand,
weil du einmalig bist....hdl

Desperate Blogger....

For few months ago..dreams come true.Mr. Acer came to my life(...compliment of Abu!) Herrn Acer open the windows for me.Made all possible things via telekom,Internet..
My sister(My little world) told me I should start doing project.For me,it was enough that I could chat and hear voice with webcam with my families abroad..(Canada,Ireland,Germany,Philippines..Manila,Davao)
Oh...I said,maniana,maniana.. spanish words..tomorrow,tomorrow.So busy,soooo relax..so lazy..or no future.
Hmmmm...sister said;"this generation is full of High Technology, if you are not going to cope-up you'll be left behind.T'ja. okey..but my Don Juan is not here,(Marc my youngest son who spoonfeed me)All I need to do is to click,click and click.All configured,programe,etc.etc
What Mommys wants,gets.Easy huh!! "MACKY".....druhung,...Bitte,... hab Dich lieb,ich vermisse dich,..wann kommst Du?-aaahahah!. anak rushly came..and e..voi`la,venetto..tapos na ang lahat.
Oooops.it'snot that easy..huhuhu!
My sister Sonia is a great company.She helps,she calls,she SMS,she'll even once in awhile junk kuya Peter..whatelse..I said: I need to do this really..other wise ma demenz ko ani.
Mr.Blogger is my partner .Sometimes he makes me confuse,sometimes frustrate me,to my dismay he even leave me"ERROR" think got tired of my being changeable "taste" mind.
Ms.Template were more than 5x change. And Mr. Blogger most of the time he made me..ha..ha..Happy.

Recuerdo....

Recuerdo....
Originally uploaded by applesofgold.

Class 1970-71...High School at University of Mindanao,Davao city Philippines

Recuerdos....

....some are gone ...and some are living
all these places have their meaning.....
High School days is the most exciting memories in life.One could really say..."if only I could turn back the time"....and yes! we were Interesting people..are people who are interested.Bores are people who are bored.
We made a lots of activities in campus...I guess if there is one to get a good credit for being active ..it was me..somehow my extra-curricular activities are 100% good..I won't dare to say "very"since I was a shy girl"kuno?"..I dance..I sing...I play instrument..do the theater piece..a declaimer...sport...religious group..activist..and a muse...above all boys were like bees roaming around..and at the age of 14.. a muslim Prince offered me a marriage and be a Princess..and of course, I gracefully say no..after all I still want to play..bahay-bahayan.